bday with s11

Celebrated my birthday with S11 today! (thanks potato! for organizing!) it was a simple meet up, but still a lot of fun.

After pizza and cake cutting, we opened my birthday present ( a board game ) and started playing with it. The game is called 'ICK' , and yes.. its about collecting ickky and gross stuff so that monsters can live in it. Took us quite some time to figure out the rules of the game, but we got the hang of it after 2 to 3 rounds.

I am so thankful for this bunch of friends because despite our busy schedules, we still try to meet up every now and then. Its been 5 years, and I'm sure this friendship will go a long way. (:
Next birthday meet-up is for dearest py! yay!

Went for my FIRST friend's wedding today! I got to meet up with Audrey, Shufen, Gabriel and of course Selina (the bride), my colleagues from Parkview Eclat. They are an awesome bunch and I am so thankful for friends like them! Audrey will be arranging a meet up at her place sometime during March! Looking forward!!

Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

But if I should break,
If I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take,
A little of the weight

Or I'll fall through

- 'Don't Let Me Fall' by Lenka

I love this song!!

New shoes that bite

New shoes always bite! It doesn't matter how well made or how expensive, new shoes worn for the first time always leaves me with huge blisters on my heel. And I'm whining cause I wore my new shoes today so I've got a huge blister on my heel. That just means I got to wear my birkenstocks until the blister goes away. Ugh. and yes, that also means this new pair of shoes they are going to be left on the shelf for quite some time.

Anyway, I just got back from my second bowling training session with STBC. Competition is next week and I'm injured! That is not too good news. :| Since my last bowling session, thanks to smallan's coaching, my thighs and butt were aching for like a week. That is an unusually long time for aching muscles to heal. But my thighs didn't hurt so much today, so I thought it was okay for me to go for a second training. While I was warming up, I felt a sharp pain on my left thigh. Uh oh. I knew for sure I wouldn't be able to play today. True enough, when it was my turn, it was so painful when I was in the last bowling position I just dropped the ball and watched it roll into the gutter. Haha. Think I strained my hamstring or something. Cause now, I can't cross my legs, and it sort of permanently hurts. (Not the aching hurt, but the sharp pain hurt) haha.

First a blister and then my thigh. That is very bad news, especially for this week since crit is in 1 week's time. But nvm, at least I still can walk. :) I'll be running around quite a bit the next few days cause I'll have to get materials, make prototypes.. There's quite a lot of work to be done. Let's hope I have something decent for presentation next tuesday.

Alice in Wonderland. Anybody wants to watch with me?

happy birthday daddy!

Happy Birthday Daddy!

'When I think about my father,
and the years we’ve had to share
I’m thankful just to know
that his love is always there.

And though he’s growing older
he grows sweeter with each year
my "knight in shining armor,"
I’m so glad to have you here!'
- Jill Lemming

a good year?

I like this Chinese New Year couplet/idiom. :)

Anyway, this year's cny was fun. Or least I felt it was more happening than the previous years. Maybe it's cause I missed one year of cny (last year), so thoroughly enjoying this year's celebration.

Unfortunately, I have thesis to fret about. Sighh...haven't done anything since my last critique... and I know I'm going to be quite dead for the next one. I don't really feel like doing anything though, cause I'm still in the holiday mode. That's the problem with these celebrations la. They come and end too quickly.

Oh well... Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year!

very much alone

now facebook has groups like

'Even If im with you all day, I miss you the second you leave.'

with 307387 fans.

didn't know everyone else felt the same way. cause in all my relationships, when i say 'i miss you', i get.. 'what for? we just saw each other.'

think i'm just very angry and sad and upset and angry.. just very bitter la. cause I cannot understand why such things must happen to me..

have been feeling very down lately, and i've been trying to take my mind off things. called a few friends to go out with me.. but nobody seem to want to hang out. and that doesnt help at all.

and when i say i'm very much alone, I don't say it cause I have no one.. but more like, where are all my friends?

aha.. this post is like super emo. and i absolutely hate it. but ahh.. i'm losing it!

some thoughts

after 2 years of craziness, I am glad my life is becoming more normal. (or at least that's what I think it is right now) And I hope it'll stay like that.
Yes, I think I can see things much clearer now and it is a good thing. But seeing things so clearly also means I saw how stupid I have been all this while. Quite upset with myself that my life got so messed up in a short span of 2 years.

2 things. One is being obedient in little things, and having faith in little things. Like what pastor shared, when we start to compromise, our morals becomes worldly standards. Its quite sad that I am no longer how I started out because I compromised a little here and there.. and now I'm so messed up. Really need to start saying no to little things, and just turn my life around. So read, meditate and pray. and focus focus! I am very distracted by random thoughts all the time and that is sooo baddd.

Second thing. I think I have been too trusting. Now that I can see things clearer than before, it really saddens me to learn that people I have trusted and regarded as close friends have used me for their own selfish gains. I always believe there is a good and kind and nice side in every person, and I still do. So how am I suppose to tell if someone cannot be trusted. I don't know...

Think it is very difficult for people to understand what I am saying cause no one really knows what went on in my life the past 2 years. But God knows, and I'm sure he knows what I need to do. So I'll just have to keep trusting God.

monday

Met up with 5 of the S11s to have Dim Sum. It is always nice to meet up with them cause we will always have something to laugh about.

Haha.. and I like the way Bao Zeng put it:

'350 degree' change

how is that even possible right?

but it happened. oh well..

a happy day

its a happy day! and i thank God for the weather!

Cycled the PCN route today.. and probably covered 20+ km from Tampines to ECP. Even though it wasn't the full route, but I'm still half dead. The slopes at Pasir Ris and I think Loyang are just crazy! My favourite route is still the one between Changi Beach to ECP... long and flat. ECP in the evening is a very happy place to be at.. its just gives a nice feeling when you stop and take in everything that's going on around you.

Had a few random thoughts while cycling and it was nice to be able to sort out my thoughts this way. Hm, I wonder what God's will is for me... and I'm quite excited to find out.

Everything has its time, and there are reasons for things that happen. So, the way our paths have crossed several times must say something right. But I guess that's something not within my control. I trust and I'll wait..

We shall see..

Oh be careful little eyes what see

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

hmm

Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves

a very long week

Its finally friday, and an end to a very long week and many other things.
The first thesis interim critique is over. Portfolio draft submission is over. so is being in a relationship.
An end to things also means the start of something new. And I am excited, because I will be graduating and working. For that to happen, I just need to focus. Focus on the right things. I think two things in my life now, would be God and my final year project. That should be enough to keep me busy.

Had a very good talk with Sis Dawn, and I think I really need to sit down and think about what I want. And after all the thinking, I'll need to do something about it. There are many things I want to do. And hopefully, 12 months later at thanksgiving, I can share about my super fruitful and exciting year.

Yes, this year will be an awesome year for me. :)

Abba Father

Abba Father
by Ron Hamilton

Father, hold me safe in Your arms;
Father keep me free from all harm.
I cast my care on You Just like a child should do
Trusting, loving all that You are.

Abba Father, I rest in You;
You're always faithful,
You're always true.
Abba, Father, You are my song
Though clouds are dark,
Though night is long.
I cry to You, Abba Father.

Father, help me lean on You more
Through each valley, through ev'ry storm
Help me when I can't see Your will is best for me;
Love me, hold me sheltered and warm.


Abba Father, I rest in You;
You're always faithful,
You're always true.
Abba, Father, You are my song
Though clouds are dark,
Though night is long.
I cry to You, Abba Father.

Father, mold me, make me like new,
Guide my footsteps, keep my heart true
So that the world may see your like-ness lives in me.
Break me, shape me, make me like You.


Abba Father, I rest in You;
You're always faithful,
You're always true.
Abba, Father, You are my song
Though clouds are dark,
Though night is long.
I cry to You, Abba Father.